Day Five

Today is day five of Clomid, my final day this cycle, and I am happy that I still have no side effects. I feel good and actually rather mellow...surprising. Whenever I see the word moodiness, I often think of someone in a bad mood or someone that is grumpy. This medicine has had the opposite effect on me. I have been more chill and less stress. I think that my hubby would even agree with that statement. Today, I called the doctor's office to set up my follicle ultrasound...this is all becoming so real for me...I am officially a science experiment. I am thinking that I will need to go in on Thursday or Friday, but the appointment nurse will have more info when she calls me back.

I am truly starting to get over some of my feelings of envy in seeing other women, particularly friends and family, who are pregnant. I hate to admit this fact, but it is true. I have found that there is such joy in sharing this time with them and anticipating my time to come. In this Christian walk, I have to take the focus off of myself and place it on the Lord. In doing this, I am given the privilege to see His greatness, which immediately fills me with a sense of peace and love. This is a tough concept, especially when I think that I have control over things in my life. I don't and I have to continually remind myself of that. Why fret over something that I cannot change...because I cannot change a thing alone...it is all only possible through the power of the Lord. I pray that I allow the Lord to comfort me when I feel weak and discouraged as I wait for my blessing. I pray the same for all of my buddies that are where I am right now or have been there...love ya!

NikNak