So Many Decisions

Ken and I met with the Agency director on today, who happens to also be an attorney. I did not know what to expect so I was anxious and excited all at the same time...not a good combination. Nothing about the finances or process really surprised us, it was consistent with what we had always heard. We were just surprised at the condition of many of the girls that choose adoption. Some of the stories were overwhelming and I left there with my head spinning.

I cried after we had dinner on the way home...just a little upset that WE were chosen to bare this cross. Do not get me wrong, I am not opposed to adoption, but what woman would not want a natural child. So, then I begin to think, maybe being childless is not as bad it seems...with it comes a lot of freedom, but also many, many years of longing for a baby to hold. So, really, being childless is not an option. I just have to remember that the Lord says that if we delight ourselves in him, that he will give us the desires of our heart...He never says how that will happen.

So, we will spend the next few weeks sifting through the paperwork and info given to us today, praying and deciding on next steps. We really want to get one of our two rental properties sold before we move forward, but that may not be what God wants, so we will wait and see...waiting is so hard, but it must be done.

In His love...NikNak